just between us - i remember it all too well

i want to go back to the night we hugged and whispered quietly and everything just feels right. how you kissed me in the middle of saying something.. when you knew i was thinking just because i blinked.. where are you? are you still there?

7 things

1. i hate you with all my heart

2. i wish i never knew you

3. if i could turn back time, i won’t even look at your way

4. i regret every path i took that led me to you

5. everyday in this life i feel stucked

6. i want to drop everything and just leave

7. maybe one day i will

hope it's nice where you are.

hi. it was your birthday yesterday. i miss you. you are and always been my love. since i was 20, since you kissed me that night. like if you call me today, right now, right at this moment - i would just drop everything and go to you. nothing else matters. i don't know if it's you or the idea of you. but when i was with you, i'm at peace. things just flow, i don't have to think, i don't have to force anything. i remember our last meet up. during your final days in malacca, in front of your hostel. our last kiss. as years go by, we talked a few times. and the last time was when you got married and didn't even bother to tell me. i wish you the best and that's it - done and dusted. like everything means nothing. i'm still lost, you know. i still don't find my way. but i hope it's nice where you are.

jar of hearts

maybe i should've just left when we temporarily broke up on 2015. like why did i stayed and begged? i could've saved myself from all this misery. everything about you is mediocre. and i'm stuck.

i missed -

 i missed being loved.