EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON :)

hey. this might be my last entry. i just don't have any feeling to update this bloody blog again. i might as well just delete it. but, it's okay. i think i just leave it this way. why? let me see. basically, my life is a complete bullshit. and anyway, dah takde maknanya pun i tulis everything dekat sini. the person who is directly involved, doesn't even care. why should i care then? i wanna get low-profile. dapat apa pun kalau everyday i cakap bila i sedih ke, bila i gembira ke, in the end it doesn't even matter. it's not like that's gonna change anything. people don't realize this, but hoping is too tiring. i nak hidup as it goes. i tak kesah jadi apa dekat depan. sedar tak buang masa je pun kita harap semua benda jadi yang macam kita nak, kita cuba sedaya-upaya buat benda jadi yang macam kita nak, tapi sebenarnya semua tu pun fate je. tak boleh ubah destiny, it's written already. so tak perlu lah nak bersusah-payah sangat. biar je dunia nak jadi apa pun. i have my few good friends, i have my boyfriend walaupun tak cinta but whatever lah, i still ada my family even jauh but they're still alive, i have my scholarship to study, maybe semua ni cukup kot as for now. balik malaysia nanti i nak carik lelaki yang baik untuk jaga i, and i'm gonna have beautiful babies :) but buat masa sekarang, i nak pass my uni's and get to 2nd year, eat good foods, sleep properly, have nice body, pretty hair, and smile always. that's it. till then,

goodbye.