you weren't mine to lose.

so he said he started it. we talked bout it for the longest time when i found out. but no matter how much he explained, i just can't wrapped my head around it. like what did he saw in her? she's like the most typical human specimen you can find. ugly face, ugly attire, with an overall ugly personality to conclude. like literally no attraction at all. yet, he attracted to her? kissed in the car after work, planned to check-in at a trashy hotel room. said i love you, i miss you, and bullshit things like that - while i was there, unfulfilled, all alone and empty. like what was he thinking? i don't understand. you don't wanna let me go. and it's not like you wanna keep me either. what do you want? hurting me like this - why?