AND MY LOVE FOR YOU IS BLIND, BUT I COULDN'T MAKE YOU SEE IT.

i sit here typing while listening to " the other side of the door " by taylor swift. and i'm thinking how my most of everything is about HIM. the title of this blog is that one song reminding me to him, together with the picture above, and bunch of blog entries, and barang-barang yang dia kasi, my very first v-day card, the crystal, the taj mahal, semua pun is still there. i never touched them since the day we broke-up, i didn't even bother to move them into the locker or anything. i just let them stood there, as i watched them everyday. i really miss him, i really care for him, but i'm done trying. i don't want to be the one yang selfish just because i need him tapi dia tak perlukan i. i taknak push ppl around. i taknak paksa dia to be with me just because i want him. i sayang dia, and apa-apa yang buat dia happy, i pun happy. if it means i have to feel this huge pain in my heart every night, so be it. i promised him i'll be fine, and if it means i have to fake a smile everytime, so be it. and so, here i am -- smiling :)