seriously. i'm done thinking, fighting, hoping, and crying for you. dah dah, pergi jauh-jauh dah. malas boleh tak nak tengok you lagi, muka you tu. sungguh merimaskan faham tak.

get the fuck off.

CHICKEN texted me :

" hey, ur uni's break juz started rite. nyway, juz wanted 2 say all d best n dat u can do it. gud luck again. tc "

ohh, ayam pun reti msg yea? sorry lah i x reply dekat ayam. GTFO.

tell me how?

kamu. yang berkemeja putih tadi, kenapa hot sangat yea? camni susah lah kalau nak suruh saya tak ingat dekat kamu. apa nak buat ni? saya rindu. camne ni, camne. camne lagi cuba cakap?

(you. i tipu je, i tak marah you tak. meh balik dekat i mehh)

" and i scream out the window, i can't even look at you. i don't need you. but i do, i do, i do. "

HEY MISTER !

HELL PUNYA LAH SANGAT SUSAH NAK GET OVER YOU. IF ONLY I TAHU SAMPAI BOLEH SAYANG YOU MACAM NI, SUMPAH I TAKKAN KELUAR BILIK LAH MALAM 6TH NOVEMBER HARI TU. I TAK INGIN LANGSUNG PUN NAK HANGOUT DENGAN YOU KOT. MANA LAH I TAHU YOU ADA DEKAT SITU MASA TU. I MANA TAHU YOU AKAN TEMAN I, LAYAN I MACAM TU. YOU MEMANG BUAT I GILA TAHU TAK. YOU NI JAHAT TAHU TAK BUAT I MACAM NI. I BENCI YOU LAH. EII ESOK KALAU I NAMPAK YOU, I NAK SEPAK-SEPAK PASTU TUMBUK MUKA YOU KUAT-KUAT. SI JAHAT, I NAK PEGI BAKAR APARTMENT YOU. KASI BUANG SEMUA YOU PUNYA JERSI, BAJU HIJAU YOU TU KE, KEMEJA MAROON, DENGAN BEG YOU KALER BIRU, PIJAK SPEC YOU, PAPE LAH THEN I NAK HEMPAS LAPTOP YOU.

yuppp, chickened out is the best thing you can do.

you obviously ignored me kan malam tadi? you don't even dare to look me, left alone to speak. and why was that? were you feeling guilty? tell me, if betul your decision yang you buat tu adalah the right one then kenapa mesti rasa bersalah? does it even felt right? apa yang you rasa sebenarnya sekarang? happy, tenang? i bet you're not, don't you?

so how's that?

ohh, i didn't sleep the whole night. haha terbaik. well, a quickie update. i dah burned candle yang you kasi. i also dah tengok crite twilight : new moon. i dah simpan ear-rings dari goa tu dalam laci, tak mau pakai dah. i langsung dah tak dengar lagu down by jay sean pun sekarang sebab dah muak. i dah tak nanges ingat you lagi. whatever has happened between us, it doesn't mean anything. we're nothing. you're nothing. i guess goodbyes really are forever.

after everything.

i said leave, but all i really want is you :(

was he worth this mess?

i saw you today, but from behind only. (bunyi mcm stalker je, ntah pape. pedulik ah) i dunno was it me, or mmg you ada pusing blkg tgk i. sengal gila, smpai bila nk cmni. smpai bila i nk kena rindu dkt you cmni. benci ar weh. penat tahu tak rasa cmni. kn bagus klau bleh delete je you dr otak i, buat semak je. bkn bleh guna pape pn.

TO THAT ONE PERSON, I FINALLY GET RID OF MY PATHETIC FB. SO MUCH FOR MY "IGNORANT ALLEGATIONS" I SUPPOSED ?? HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY NOW, MUCH MUCH HAPPY. HAVE A GOOD LIFE :))

how could that be possible?

i still miss you. the candle is still hanging on my mirror, i'm still wearing those ear-rings. you're in everyone i see. sometimes, i just feel like i was crazy already. i still meet you in my dreamland. that "twilight : new moon" movie is still there in my lappy, i still haven't watch it yet. you promised me to watch it together, remember? i'm still listening to the "down by jay sean" song everyday, i whisper your name in my heart everytime. and, and. i still do love, as always.

lagi lah i jadi gila.

you really like him that much is it? i do. heard he's been going through a rough time too? i know. have you both talked about it? yes. so what did he say? nothing. are you okay girl? no. so worried, you seem very "emo" lately. well then, what do you expect?